Through the Looking Glass

As I was waking up, I was dreaming. I was reading a book, many books, they were difficult to read, but full of wisdom, I loved them. I was the small girl, but I could read them and understand all the wisdom, the paradigms of consciousness, I understood it all. This knowledge seemed to be a “steadying force” that was being explained by many people, and there was a strong knowing that it was there, behind everything. In fact, it was there always, it was laid out in many ways, and even if I hadn’t read the books, the knowledge just was, as it is, underlying everything. It was already all there.

And then, as dreams go, I was the adult, who remembered that she had already read this, somewhere, sometime.

When I awoke I felt as if this whole lifetime, is already all there. For everyone – it is already there. Everyone is complete and the manifestation is complete.

Falling back into this line of thought in a waking meditative state, I again saw it. As I traced over what seemed to be “the pages”, with a small jeweler’s magnifying glass, I began to see the details. How wondrous, the green trees and the earth in such diversity; the people in this awareness space of the magnifying glass each had their own identifiable personalities and vibrations. I kept going over and over this small space, finding out more things, interacting with the people. And they are interacting with me. I was curious and intensely interested .

Somewhere in that small space of what I was perceiving as time, as the magnifying glass moved across, I become that time. I am that vision in the magnifying glass. I am no longer the watcher, guiding the glass over the manifestation to see what I could see. I have become entangled with the beings and I am working through this paradigm which is this place in time. There are lots of problems, one day leads to the next. I think I understand, I think I am helping or I think I am improving and getting ahead of this game. More and more and more, it never stops… I search for the Utopia, the way out – the greater meaning or the solution to problems.

During this experience in time, I have the nagging feeling that I have done all this before, or it is fate? But it can’t be fate because I am making choices. I am choosing good and bad, purifying myself, striving to understand and to become an enlightened spiritual being. It can’t be fate, because if it were all laid out wouldn’t that eliminate the choices?

But those choices… do they appear to be choices? Or are they just me, running my awareness, my “jeweler’s magnifying glass”, over the already complete manifestation, and the only choice I am making is which part of it I want to see?

Every experience I have there, in that moving space of awareness which has become time, has infinite possibilities; every being is infinite and complete and part of the whole manifestation.

I become the watcher looking through the glass again and I see it as a dream, but the flavor of it remains on my soul, the taste on my lips of something I have forgotten, some bit of understanding remains, I can’t remember how I know it, I try to trace my thoughts back and get lost ….

I wanted to share this with you, so that you would know that everything is okay, you are not lost; you are part of a whole that is already complete.

It’s not about the “things, the personality and the experiences” – we are awareness beings without these attributes. We are all Space and Time and our curiosity which pushes us to see or experience the manifestation is the movement.